frustration – Through the Lens of Motherhood

Step out …

Toronto – Closed Pandemic week 4 or 5: It has been a long few weeks. I have sat down to write a thousand times and either one of the kids comes to ask a question (usually preceeded by the announcement that they are hungry) or I sit and stare at the blank screen lost in thoughtContinue reading “Step out …”

My daily whine…

It used to be that a village raised a child, no parent was alone in the struggle to raise their children up to be good men and women. No parent had to sit and wonder and play the guessing games of what will or will not work for their child. They had mothers, Grandmothers andContinue reading “My daily whine…”

Tell my heart!

I look back at the past few years and I can’t believe we have made it… this sounds depressing but I am so tired, and really just frustrated today. I know that the news at Josh’s last ECHO wasn’t terrible, I understand that there is hope, but yet here I am, a few days laterContinue reading “Tell my heart!”

anger

We all struggle with anger sometimes, maybe there is someone at work who gets under our skin, maybe it’s an injustice carried out against you, maybe it’s just a perceived wrong done to us, whatever it is we have to struggle with anger. I remember once when I was really angry with someone a friendContinue reading “anger”

The blessing of a listening ear…

For a long time now people have been throwing around words about Josh like ‘Autism’ or ‘Austisic spectrum’. I would ask repeatedly why that was, what they were looking at, what signs and markers they saw and I felt repeatedly unheard, or at the very least I felt like I was just the ‘mother inContinue reading “The blessing of a listening ear…”

Personality disorder or Communication breakdown?

I am a fickle person… I just can’t make up my mind! One day things are good, I feel blessed and put together, the next I feel frustrated, tired and discouraged. You that read my Blog probably wonder if I have some kind of a personality disorder… I wonder that myself at times and haveContinue reading “Personality disorder or Communication breakdown?”

Great Expectations

Josh is almost three, Kaleb is almost 15 months. I have told you all how wonderful they are, what amazing kids they are and I have on occasion mentioned the trouble they can get into and the drama that they can cause. Today, I am thinking about the expectations I place on them, even atContinue reading “Great Expectations”